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the story has never been to the end


Writer's Block: Bless you!
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the Sun.


What are you allergic to?

Writer's Block: R.I.P
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hug me, love me, burn me, and scatter me across the sky. turn me into the air, wind and your breathe. 



What do you want done with your body after you die?

砂だらけ
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When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class 
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions – 
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'


もしこれって人生だとしたら、私はとても詰まらない人間だわ
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it occured to me today, that. what I am now, where I am now, and what I am doing. did not really differ that much as the me from 4 years ago when I've just graduated from TP. 

lets see. 

we graduated in April 4 years ago, had our design school graduate show followed by the graduation ceremony and stuff. I didn't really do anything much after that. the only time where I was probably preoccupied and had made an important decision was when I applied for the Ambassy of Japan monbusho scholarship. which was around in June. this year I came to Melbourne in June.

thereafter I remained jobless. usually I was at home, well, once in a while I went out, met some friends. otherwise I was at home reading Sandman and probably some other manga series. did some sketches occassionally, wrote stories, and of course watched anime, etc. slept and awoke at timing opposite to what normal humans usually do. not that much different from what I am been doing now too. in fact, that is exactly what I had turned into doing in Melbourne too. procrastinating. 

then in July/August, I took up a freelance job after a reccommandation from a friend. 4 years ago. some simple project, but it got kind of draggy till completion.

some time back in August I helped out Linus with his storyboard. another simple task that sort of got dragged out. too.

so for about half a year after I graduated I remained pretty much jobless, before finally starting work in movingbits s an animator in October, after an interview. then in December I received the news that I got the monbusho scholarship. 

December. 

makes me really want to laugh at myself right now. 

the pessimistic me definitely will not be able to even crack up a smile, at such patheticness.

but the optimistic me smirked. 
 


...was what went through in my mind and occured to me when I was showering just now in the bathroom. 


on a sidenote, I was so preoccupied with the thoughts of all-the-above-mentioned in the shower just now, I amusingly mistaken the conditioner for shampoo and only realized it after I squeezed it out onto my palm. letting out a surprised gasp followed by a sigh, the swirly lump of conditioner remained on my right palm.

because I decided not to waste it. then I took the shampoo and washed my hair with just my left hand. 


that is the kind of person I am. 

so stupid. 

musing
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this made me lol-ed. hahaha, twitter timeline ftw.
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いいんじゃない?
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it only came true for 3 years.

I am going to live the rest of my life chasing it again. 

haha, what a realization. this feeling. is like laughing and cying at the same time, neither truly feeling sad at all nor amazing happy, but just moving on forward yet again.

まぁ いいんじゃない?
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oh shit
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the caffeine overdose is turning me into a monster.

ひらめいた!!!
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idea.

THE IDEA OF A FILM/STORY JUST POPS INTO MY HEAD!!!!! OMGGGGGGG

needs. to. write. this down. immediately. 

after such a looooonng time without having thoughts about any ideas. 

so excited now! even though it is, kind of, strange...

but, no deny that a spark has lit in my heart!!!



ahh, what am I thinking seriously! D; 

but somehow, the cloudiness seems to clear up a little...
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supposedly on today
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新海誠 新作「猫の集会」



this is uber cute lol

makes my day <3




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sore demo
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 ok enough of all the bad things. lets rant about the anime I am so loving this season!

それでも町は廻っている ED



それでも町は廻っている OP



sore machi!!! another one of Akiyuki Shinbo's best anime yet again <3 really, can't get enough love of Akiyuki Shinbo's works. and I just realized Hotori's seiyuu is the same as Maka's! no wonder I found it sounds so familiar <3 (on a side note, TV is showing rerun of Soul Eater right at this moment! XD)


and the other anime I am going crazy over this season is Shinryaku! Ika Musume lol and Zakuro. Zakuro is really sweet. ah when all these school stuffs is over and I get my laptop, I am going to have a marathon like mad on all these animes, plus Elfen Lied too. its so troublesome to stream them online ~_~ and I really have no time to watch any anime nowadays unless if they happened to show on TV and I saw them, like how I found out about Sore Machi and Zakuro. =3





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the end of its life
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sigh. after going through five years of love, hope, despair, sweat and happiness together, everyday by each other side... finally, my laptop meets its end two days ago. I will truly miss you. <3 you've even seen sides of me that others has never and will never ever see in their entire life. I am really happy to have your company throughout my lonely years in Japan almost at every moments, even during my sleeps and dreams. even my bed will miss you dearly, the shape and feeling of your arse sitting on it and giving it warmth and comfy. I am glad to have spent your last moment with you reading Fairy Tail and backing up the last bits of anime over to another external hard drive. 

lol can't wait to perform an autopsy on you.


with that said, time to get myself a new lover


in the meantime, goodbye folks. now that I won't be here for you as often as when you need me to be anymore.

although I will still come online occasionally with the pc in the common room at the dorm. but till then, until I get my new lover... take care everybody, wherever you are on the other side of the internets! ;D

Au revoir~


PS: I came down with a bad flu just two days ago too. I went to see a doctor today and the nurse who prescribed me the medicine said I also went to the clinic around this time last year during Nov, and was also because of flu lol and then she said oh look the medicines I am getting are all the same medicines as last year! and I just laughed. oh all the small little tidbits in my life. lol


I am going to sleep. need to face a Tuesday tml ); 

love of the century
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I am back~

after experiencing living three different lives in a span of less than two weeks. /faints haha

new level of inspirations. ok not really haha! but after the twelve days, I feel different when I return to Japan. somehow. (ok one difference is, Im sick lol down with sore throat and flu) but yea.

anyway, I'll upload the photos of Melbourne up on facebook as soon as I get them up on my com. <3 loves.

and here is a new found love song on Abel's Iphone.


MGMT - Of Moons, Birds & Monsters




awesome lyrics under the cut <3 lolCollapse )



oh you don't know how much I love his playlist even though it is like completely different from mine.



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a new kind of enchantment
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Andrew Bennett vs Tatana feat Tiff Lacey - Closer Than A Heartbeat (Gareth Emery remix)



yay finally found the original/independent song from my fave portion of Vixro - Singing Safari! so happy <3











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それがいけない! その思わせぶりがいけない
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ok, emo stuff aside. phone call for interview and orientation from T2 Studio came! <3

next monday afternoon! it just have to be the day right before our grad project proposal presentation )=

ok, wish me luck lol


xh is strong, even if she has got no one, she can still move forward =D

幸せは歩いてこない だから歩いて行くだね~

crack
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reminds me why I love Rammstein songs so much again




lyrics under cutCollapse )
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fate in its most twisted form
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pxsky is revived. when Germany score 4-0 against Argentina in the match ytd night.

for the time being. lol

so much bad drama and good turnover happened in the past few days. not that anything in front of us has changed at all - especially the deadlines lol. but I've come to know more, see more, and yet I've also come to doubt more and getting more confused. how I wished everything, even time, could pause for a while. for me to calm my heart down and rest. stop and think.

roll on the bed and laze around.

sigh.

a moment of youtubing haha
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OLD SCHOOL!!!!

omg, I remember loving this drama like mad when it was airing on sg tv so many years ago. me and my brother both love the same pairing haha our OTP at 1:31 lol the two exorcists.

wah seeing this makes me wanna rewatch the whole series again! my fave taiwan/period drama ever <3

surprise? even though xh is like that (like, pure-blood otaku, always going anime~ manga~ yay!) but actually she likes 小倩 and 风云 very very much. especially 小倩 and the animated version movie <3

this!!!





ahh old school. the 90s. the golden age of animation and of many other loves <3

major big roadblock
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dear god, what am I going to do with my 卒業制作

never had I been in such major big confusion over a decision-making before.

what am I going to do what am I going to dooooooooo

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volcano
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I want to drink, go gigs and concerts, head bang, club, dance, sing and scream my lungs out after all these is over.

fuck yeah. that would be fun <3

24/7
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very. tired.

needs to really keep my spirits up )=

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