it occured to me today, that. what I am now, where I am now, and what I am doing. did not really differ that much as the me from 4 years ago when I've just graduated from TP.
lets see.
we graduated in April 4 years ago, had our design school graduate show followed by the graduation ceremony and stuff. I didn't really do anything much after that. the only time where I was probably preoccupied and had made an important decision was when I applied for the Ambassy of Japan monbusho scholarship. which was around in June. this year I came to Melbourne in June.
thereafter I remained jobless. usually I was at home, well, once in a while I went out, met some friends. otherwise I was at home reading Sandman and probably some other manga series. did some sketches occassionally, wrote stories, and of course watched anime, etc. slept and awoke at timing opposite to what normal humans usually do. not that much different from what I am been doing now too. in fact, that is exactly what I had turned into doing in Melbourne too. procrastinating.
then in July/August, I took up a freelance job after a reccommandation from a friend. 4 years ago. some simple project, but it got kind of draggy till completion.
some time back in August I helped out Linus with his storyboard. another simple task that sort of got dragged out. too.
so for about half a year after I graduated I remained pretty much jobless, before finally starting work in movingbits s an animator in October, after an interview. then in December I received the news that I got the monbusho scholarship.
December.
makes me really want to laugh at myself right now.
the pessimistic me definitely will not be able to even crack up a smile, at such patheticness.
but the optimistic me smirked.
...was what went through in my mind and occured to me when I was showering just now in the bathroom.
on a sidenote, I was so preoccupied with the thoughts of all-the-above-mentioned in the shower just now, I amusingly mistaken the conditioner for shampoo and only realized it after I squeezed it out onto my palm. letting out a surprised gasp followed by a sigh, the swirly lump of conditioner remained on my right palm.
because I decided not to waste it. then I took the shampoo and washed my hair with just my left hand.
that is the kind of person I am.
so stupid.