ytd, had a chat with christine about whatever fate and destiny is or meant to us or how it works in life. haha I know, random. but she said she needs some stimulation to make her writing mind runs ~_~ haha
anyway, lately there have been several things that has been keeping my mind occupied. biggest issue being - moving out of the student dorm. I think I havent yet brought this topic up before on my blog (though I did mention briefly to abel and christine but briefly - is not enough to sum up this huge matter) nor to my parents yet OTL...yes, my parents haha
the first time the idea of moving out came into my mind was during a couple of weeks ago before the previous monthly dorm meeting. it is all due to the amount of time I am taking to travel to school everyday and it is very draining. it takes abt 3 hrs daily for me to travel to and fro school, not very effective used of time. looking at that 3 hrs I am spending everyday plus the physical exhaustion of the journey (maybe that accounts for part of my inefficiency in working on assignments, I don't know - or perhaps it was just a convenient excuse? haha but I guess it does matters - the time), it would be much better for me to just move to somewhere that is closer to my school.
and that was just my thought. however, looking at the admin and money and time and energy involved in moving out, I don't think the current me has the capacity to do it alone yet, especially the financial part ~_~ though I did say money is not exactly the main problem but it forms bulk of the problem... and then there is still the part about living in a totally new place.
for the me now, thinking about not being able to stay together with the ppl (not say all haha but some, ah I am bias ~_~) in the dorm now, is quite devastating. maybe it will change when it comes the time we have to separate again. but I don't know...it is like, if I leave or if any person leaves me, it feels like everything that we had built our feelings or relationship on will all be disconnected. while everyone else seems to be able to keep theirs. and I can't help but think if whether my feelings towards ppl are too fragile and simply, easily breakable...
anyway that kind of emo stuffs aside lol during the previous meeting last month in sept our dorm sensei said that this year because we are staying in the language sch's dorm, they are lacking spaces for the new students coming in, so the school had decided that, they might need to chase us out of this dorm next year april. however, this is not a fix decision yet, as my dorm sensei had said. he seems to want to negotiate with the school for us because originally, for our batch, the original agreement was that we were supposed to be able to continue staying until we graduate from college, so if the school changes its mind now, it is consider a breach of what they had promised us earlier on - which means, there are room for negotiation (although not fully guarantee success), if the individual strongly does not want to move out because it is financially impossible/not feasible.
and so came the 個人面談, last saturday. I talked to the dorm sensei, and I choose to oppt for the second choice - it is ok if we had to move. I wonder if it was the correct decision, because once I made that choice, there is no room for negotiation. meaning, I must move out next year because I will be chase out if the school decides to chase us out. zhuan zhen and cy both chose to decide to stay, meaning if they don't have to move, they don't want to move out. so it is just me that wants to move afterall...say, its not like I am angry or sad or anything but...
well, nevertheless I probably will have to move looking at how things are now. so I guess will have to start looking seriously for new apartment of dorm. right now, my priority is if I must move, it has to be to somewhere close to school, so somewhere along the Sobu Line is good (maybe akiba? haha but akiba is messy and complicated, plus the rent is probably very very high) but probably not Suidobashi, or places that doesnt feels like it is a neighbourhood for living. and one thing is, Tokyo rent are expensive...sigh.
anyway, so far this is how things have been. as for school, 文化祭 is coming, meaning school festival is just around the corner! =D actually its not something to be so excited for haha but I hope it will be fun. it is not like my school has a campus. I'd really wished that my school at least, has a campus, so there that feeling of a school community. haha though its not something that I can choose, so I guess that can't be help...something of a regret? hmm anyway, remember the group project presentation last week? our group was chosen out of the 12 as one of the six groups to present our work during the school festival =D it is a good thing, I am happy for it, in fact, for everyone in the group. however, that means that I will have to present!!!!! D= ahhhh I must say, I have no confidence ~_~ presenting in English is ok, anything can be done spontaneously, anything can be express properly. but in Japanese...my brain will just get jammed halfway. me wants to properly express some natural spontaneous actions!!! lol anyway, that day when we had our presentation, even though I went through inside my mind the lines a couple of times, when I actually said it, it still gets all choppy and I must keep recalling what was supposed to come next...
hmm...k so much so about these. right now first sem has ended, and second sem will start soon next week after the 文化祭 this weekend. I was thinking about adding another elective. shld I? I alr took an paid extension class for figure drawing. paid!! must fork out own money (/oT) - 13000 yen!!! which is about 180sgd...)= but no choice, because I couldn't get the elective class for figure drawing ~_~ as usual, in TP its a popular elective and at here it is so too. and I die die want to take figure drawing this sem, so I went to apply for the extension class out of spontaneous and compulsive actions lol but I got 背景 with Makoto Yuasa sensei in exchange for the figure drawing class so I am happy haha like, we only can have 3 choices at electives, and there are two that I must take - storyboard and 制作管理 and two that I want to take - 背景 and figure drawing. so yea...I put 背景 at third choice and figure drawing fourth, which of course I didn't get. but when it comes to the add/drop (actually here there is no drop only add lol) figure drawing classes are all full, so the remaining electives are the rather shitty ones. and then I was thinking if I shld actually add another elective from the remaning rather shitty ones lol k maybe not all are that bad but they are classes little ppl wants lol so sad... ~_~ although, since I've passed design practical I don't need to add for the sake of credits anymore but looking at my timetable now...
mon: 9:20-12:30 作画 / 13:20-16:30 制作管理
tues: 9:20-10:50 シナリオ論 / 11:00-12:30 映像論
wed: 9:20-12:30 ドローイング
thurs: 13:20-16:30 背景
fri: 9:20-12:30企画制作 / 13:20-16:30絵コンテ / 16:40-19:40人体クロッキー上級
I only have classes until noon on tues and wed (but my friday is hellish - 9am to 8pm) so actually I can add another elective after that, could be at the afternoon slot or evening slot, either ways, if its the evening slot I can stay in school to do work -_-v though I don't know if it will be too taxing if I add another elective, thinking about the assignments part. the classes time are actually not too much to handle, but its the assignments they give after that...ah, dilemmaaaaaa ~_~
hmm I think I want to add photo direction. it is under Art, and its photography =D (shldn't go wrong lol) and this time maybe a little deviation to photography may help...精神的に hahaha! its on monday evening though ~_~ but what shld I do... shld I even add any at all?? )= what if I add and then I messed up my workload balance and time management again...
and I just realized the figure drawing I took was intermediate (/oT) -facepalm- meaning it is not just simply croquis but also encompassed character design using the model...or so the description seems...\(-_-)
hmm...
oh yea, lately I am hooked onto this new manga series by the same artist/author who did Deadman Wonderland =D its called Livingstone. I like the art, it feels much nicer than Deadman's style, not that Deadman is not nice lol but I guess I really much preferred Livingstone's art style, especially the characters and also the story is very interesting! I really reccommand a read haha though there are only 5 chapters now at the moment, I wish they would faster release more!!!! XD I will surely get the tankobun when it comes out hahaha ♥ love the art XD maybe I shld draw some Livingstone fanart =D lately I've also been drawing more, guess I did improved a little by little bits as the time goes...
oh well, since today I have no school and I even had time to make chicken rice with the premix my friend gave to me, I guess I can continue to chill somemore, maybe read Rurouni Kenshin or watch some animes (no idea what to watch though ~_~) and enjoy the pitter patter rain ouside...
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